Highs:
- Chris visited from Thursday to Sunday! We aren't able to see each other as much now that I tutor on Saturdays, so it was so good to see him for longer than a day and a half. Having him here makes me so much more relaxed and I seriously don't know how I would have gotten through the last 6 months without him.
- 26 days until Spring Break! I can't wait for Vegas!
Okay, so...I always try to write more highs than lows in my blog updates. It seems like it's better to focus on the positives in life more than the negatives, and while blogging the negatives is therapeutic, I always like to include more good than bad. However, that just truly isn't possible for me this week. So here goes the negative...
Lows:
- I was sick ALL of last week. I woke up Monday feeling like crap, and progressively got worse. By the time Chris came Thursday, I was in full-blown flu/strep throat/am-I-dying mode. This meant that our quality time together consisted of me sleeping ALL weekend, and drugged up on cold medicines the entire time. I know he must have been so bored since we only left the apartment about 2 times in 4 days, but he was a trooper and took good care of me.
- My kids take their huge state test on April 24th...even though it seems like we have a lot of time left, with Spring Break and middle of year testing next week, it feels like I have hardly any instructional days left with them, and I'm terrified that they're not ready.
- I have no idea if I'm preparing my students for this test (and even their futures) well enough. Lately I've been feeling very inadequate as a teacher. My kids are misbehaving more than usual, I don't feel like the "fun" teacher that I used to be, and I'm feeling kind of down on myself overall. This job is so difficult and I'm just not sure if I'm even doing a good job.
- I got a parking ticket. I went to court to fight it because I thought the street parking signs were very misleading. The judge asked me for any pictures that I took, and then proceeded to tell me that the pictures I showed him actually incriminated myself. He even said to me, "I bet you feel stupid for showing me those pictures now, huh? You just made my case." Long story short, he made me feel like a royal idiot, and though I tried to hold back tears, they definitely started flowing as I exited the court room. Talk about embarrassing.
- The judge lowered my parking citation from $70 from $30. This would be a high, except for the fact that the judge entered my citation number incorrectly into the system, so now it shows that I have TWO parking tickets...one for $30 and for $70. I have called about 5 times now and each time the city of Houston tells me something different---"Oh, don't worry, I'll get that fixed for you, check back tomorrow it should be taken care of..." or "You're gonna have to come back in and see the judge to get that fixed. I can't fix that over the phone for you."
- Like I said, I took my first sick day ever today. Of course, on the one day I need to take a sick day, no substitute signs up to fill my absence. Someone from the front office covered for me all day, but I feel bad because I didn't want my absence to make it harder on anyone else on my staff.
- I feel like I'm not even myself anymore. I have no social life, feel like I'm not even a fun person anymore, and don't even have time to take care of myself let alone spend time with the few friends that I have in this city. Teaching is not the kind of job that allows you to stop working when you finish at work for the day---this job literally consumes me. My teaching friends and I even joke about how pathetic our happy hours are since all we talk about are our students.
This blog does a pretty awesome job describing the life of a teacher, and kind of sums up how I feel every single day:
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